no more lists

So i've been wanting to drink for a while now, but I haven't. Lately I feel empty though i'm unsure why. My life consists of school, work, family and friends, and i couldnt ask for more. There is something inside me that keeps me from loving my life. I have always been a negative person and it has become a major problem in my life. There are happy memorable moments that I cherish but on a day to day basis i'm discontent. I was worse before, I use to cry sooo much but that at least has changed. i dont know why im writing this. im just gonna stop.